SUI

my friends, my loves, my disappointments… all together. so much happens in a single day that sometimes my mind can’t keep up. but still, i make plans about life. for example, i made a guest list for my party in istanbul. that gives me life energy.

to god, to signs, to songs… today i’m sensitive to everything. sometimes my brain is so noisy, and sometimes there’s a strange silence. being on my period might be making these feelings stronger.

when i get home, i want to paint. if i don’t have paints, maybe i’ll go out and buy a few things from cass art. even just putting on my lipstick and going outside would be a change. sometimes i feel afraid, but i can take small steps.

after all, today is both very heavy and very special for me. two months… i made it. even though everything is messy, the more i write, the clearer i see.